I am unemployed
“Tell us about yourself.” I get this question 9 out 10 times when I’m at a job interview. Doesn’t the employer know how to read? He can see who I am in my job application and CV. No, he can’t. He wants to see and hear me tell him who I am. When I get this question, I tell him about my marriage, my kids, and what I have been doing since I graduated. I repeat the things in my CV. In the end, I tell him why I’m there; I am unemployed.
It’s the story about the identities society has given me. Society tells me that I’m a kindergarten teacher and a mother. For three years, society has been telling me that I’m unemployed. I could call myself a terrorist of society, a failure or a social outcast because this is what the word “unemployed” means to many people. For a long time, I denied being unemployed, but not anymore. What the word means to other people, is not my problem.
Who am I?
- My Unemployment Benefit Fund are raising their arms: “You have an education, you are a kindergarten teacher!” I look at the floor. I can’t find a job.
- I have relations. I am daughter, a sister, a niece, a cousin, an aunt, a daughter in law, a wife, a mother, a friend, a neighbor and a woman.
Who am I to myself?
- I am a human being created in God’s image. No one can deny my humanity. No one can question that every person has value.
I am writer
I am also a writer. I began to write a diary when I was 8. I wrote poetry when I was young. I became an adult. A voice inside me said:
“You are not a writer because you haven’t published anything. You can’t become an author or a writer because no one wants to publish your books. No one reads books. Why write when your husband, children and job applications need you?”
An author told me: “You are not a writer for you haven’t published any books. You are an amateur writer.”
No. I don’t want to be an amateur. When I think about amateurs, I come to think about Dancing with the Stars, X-factor and stamp collectors. I connect these people with something temporarily, with a hobby. My writing is not a hobby, it’s a passion. I want to write even though books are an endangered species. I write even though no one reads my words. I write because I love to write. I am a writer. When I’m writing, I am alive.
Why the words “I am” are dangerous
Be careful which words you put in the end, when you say “I am.”
In the Bible, Jahve, the Hebrew word for God, means “I am.” In John’s gospel Jesus tells us who he is; “I am”; “I am the bread of life.” “I am the good shepherd”, “I am the light of the world”, “I am the door”, “I am the resurrection”, “I am the true wine tree”, “I am the truth, the road and life.”
When I say “I am”, I create my own identity.
When you say “You are”, you create an identity for another person.
What do you tell others about yourself? Share in the comments.
You ended with “I am” and “You are.” *I* am your sister in Christ and can’t wait to read more of what you have to share!
Hi sister 🙂 thank you so much!
Hi Mariane. Your post on our Intentional blogging community fb page led me here. And I was right, your blog is worth reading.
You are right about Identity. We do tend to label ourselves unwittingly and forget the power of our words don our own lives. Thank you for this. I will try to remember that I have been create in the image and likeness of God. 🙂
Hi May De Jesus, Thank you for your kind comment and feedback! Yes, you ARE created in the image of God! 🙂
Hi, Mariane! What a great, thoughtful first post for this blog. A person is never the sum of one identity. We are constantly changing, juggling, and sometimes sharing roles. I am: a mother, a wife, an employee, a writer, a blogger, a friend, a volleyball player, a sports fan, a runner, a chef, a sister, an aunt, an artist, a dreamer, an achiever… the list goes on! It’s important to not let one role take center stage, pushing your other roles to the side. It’s a challenge, but very important to find balance, evaluate your priorities, and give yourself a break, too. I find these tasks especially hard as a new mom to twin boys. I work full-time outside of the house in a dual-income household. Admittedly, my life on my blog and on my social media accounts may often look “easy” and perfect on the outside, but it is a lot of hard work! Thank you for the chance to think about the statement beginning with, “I am…” Looking forward to reading more of your blog!
Hi Sharisse, thank you so much for sharing your thoughts about this topic. You’re right we all have multiple caps and different roles. The challenge is to not get stuck in a certain role. I’m a mother of two kids too. I do not doubt that you have much hard work! Many thoughts and blessings from me.
I also decided to call myself a writer because I am writing. I can’t wait till I can call myself “author!” None of that matters though, if I don’t remember who I am in Christ.
I’m also striving for the author-title 🙂 Yep, our identity in Christ is crucial!
Mariane, this is so perfect for your introductory post! I have always felt compelled to write but do not feel that I can say I’m a writer because nothing is published. I am also a beekeeper and that is what I tell people when they ask. Those “I am” statements are powerful and it’s important to be careful with those. Cannot wait to read more of your writing!
Michelle, thank you so much! Thank you for your encouragement! Actually, someone told me that you’re published if you have a blog. Will you call yourself a writer now? But I know your feeling. It’s still a process to me too. I haven’t told everyone that I am writer, but I will, I think!