Mariane Doktor, servant and writer

A journey in creativity and faith

Tag: prayer

In the shadow of your wings

The sun is shining
on the folded hands
I’m only dust

The curtain of the sky
Torn apart
The head is filled
With your word
The day sleeps no longer
Waiting for the lamb
On my knees
I’m lying
In the shadow
Of your wings

Only you, Lord can quench
The thirst
In my soul
Eternal you
You, the only God
You are my life and my light
You are who you are

Get up

Rain
tiredness
I can’t feel myself
A bird flies into the window
The body is a stone
Don’t wanna get up
The cold fingers
Write no more
I’m tired and hungry
I can’t do anything
Headache, autumn storm, October rain, moving mess and emptiness
I am powerless

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Not fast food

Why is God distant? But is He distant?
I believe I can find God in the same way as I find my phone, open the refrigerator, turn on the TV and run to buy groceries.
Many times I have to wait for hours, weeks, months and years on God. But I don’t want to wait any longer than five minutes.
I’m used to the comfortable life.
If we don’t want to cook or bake, we can buy a prepared meal.
If we don’t want to buy groceries, we can have them delivered.
The washing machine washes the clothes. The tumble drier dries the clothes. The dishwasher washes the dishes. The vacuum cleaner cleans the floor. The car is faster than our feet. The radio, tv and cell phone give us fast entertainment.
But God, you’re not fast food.
You’re not fast entertainment.
I can read in my Bible, and you’re still distant.
I can read a devotion and you’re distant.
I can listen to worship and you’re distant.
I can listen to a sermon and you’re distant.
I can read a Christian book and you’re distant.
I can attend church and you’re distant.
I can pray for five minutes, and you’re silent and distant.
You’re not an automate or a robot
You’re not a bottom or a pet
You’re not a doll
You’re not man-made
Your greatness and holiness are indefinite
God, help me listen to you
Help me to be more patient and humble

 

Fill my empty hands

Fill my mind and my heart
with your water
I will catch every drop
remember each drop
How it feels on my skin

I was thirsty and you gave me water
I was dirty and you cleansed me
I called and you answered
Every good gift is from above

 

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A Letter from God

I’m honored to present a guest post  by Brooke Lynn, author of Raised by Strangers.

 

I want to share this meaningful letter with you that I received in my spirit in September of 2012, from God, our loving Father.  I was steadfast in prayer and begging for my heart’s desire which was to publish my first book. I prayed and believed God with every fiber of my being that He would one day allow me to share my story with the world, using my pain to glorify Him. This was His response to me:

God reminded me of my first trip to the beach at the age of nine. This trip was traveled with my two female caretakers who abused me. Listen to the words of comfort and peace spoken to my heart by our compassionate and faithful God. ~ If you pray, God will answer!  We just have to listen, be still and sometimes wait~

“The ocean is your peace, so sweet and so surreal; you wonder if it’s a dream but realize it’s all for real.

You watch and hear the seagulls flying low for you to see, it’s at this time and in this beauty you view creation; see it is Me!

In California, you set your feet upon the sand and felt the water.  You weren’t paying attention to me but I was holding onto you, my daughter.

Remember at that time you felt such a sense of peace.  And now comes another time when you can breathe, relax and release.

Your memories are painful and hard to understand.  At times I carried you, and at others I held your hand.

When you asked Me to reveal myself and questioned my reality; I surely didn’t disappoint you after all the things I let you see.

You never gave up hope or any of your faith.  You just kept believing and praying, calling on my name.

And here I am right now, standing next to you; embracing you ever tightly, so faithful, real and true.

Let us join together in a relationship of delight. I will never leave you, morning, noon or night.

The prayers you pray I answer, your words rock My Throne. The prayers you pray I answer and I will give you bread and not a stone.

Do not question if you are crazy; it is Me you feel and hear. I am very close, so familiar, and holding onto you my dear.

And what is it you ask and want of me; to publish your book and work in ministry?

To help others is your desire and to glorify me in all you do, I will say yes to you sweet child, and work side by side with you.

Keep your focus on me and let’s grow doing this as a team. I have yet more to offer you, more than you can imagine think or dream.

And you ask Me today to clearly give you a sign. Will your book be published?  Yes, and with only God’s great design.

You will have the book and many others too, but stay focused on the simple, My love and relationship with you.

You will keep growing and more revelation will come. And sometimes it won’t be the end even when you think you are done.

If you want a best seller and to reach many for my glory,

Keep praying to reveal Jesus with your life’s story.

My love, power, peace, strength, and the Holy Spirit will anoint you and see you through.

Draw Close To Me, And I Will Draw Close To You!

Love,

Jesus

 

And my dear friends I am forever thankful to God for His word.God is not a man, so he does not lie. He is not human, so he does not change his mind. Has he ever spoken and failed to act? Has he ever promised and not carried it through?”  (Numbers 23:19)

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