I tried to find you
inside the construct of information
I tried to find you
inside structures and lectures
I tried to mold you
to fit my frame of mind
I tried to find you
inside Excel and MS Word

But you are no pdf-file
You are no pattern or scheme

I found you
in my self-destruction
I found you
in the Word that was written
before life came to life
You are beyond any comprehension
You are no reflection but a person
You are three, and one
You are more than a man

I stand before the door
to the sky,
before the door
to the way of truth and life
I ask you
can you forgive me?